Patient Comments: Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) - Experience

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Comment from: woman of god, 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: October 07

I have been struggling with OCD since I was about sixteen. At first I did not know what was wrong with me. I always had a fear of going crazy or just losing control all of a sudden. I have suffered for years from bad thoughts and repetitive thinking. At one point I started checking doors to make sure they were locked or always counting to three. Finally, I was able to stop my self from these stupid rituals but I was still having bad and repetitive thoughts. I finally had a break down on my way to work at age 23. I told my husband everything I had been keeping from him for fear he would leave me. I am happy to say he did not leave me and he has shown me nothing but unconditional love as well as my 2 beautiful children. Not saying we don't have our ups and downs but like it is said by Peter in the bible, love is a strong as death love conquers all. I am on Zoloft as well as a nerve pill right that I have been taking on and off since I was 23. My hope for the future is to be totally drug free.

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Comment from: polaris, 55-64 Male (Patient) Published: October 07

I find myself counting things, cows in a field, birds, tiles on a wall, tiles on floor, anything that has a number connected to it. I am not sure how or why I do this, I tell myself to stop counting and look away. Taking generic Celexa - citalopram 40 mg.

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Comment from: Amanda, 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: August 17

I have always been compulsive, as long as I can remember. I got worse at 19 when I was just married. I would make my husband get up with me in the night to remake the bed that we were sleeping in because the sheets were not straight. I pick my fingers until the bleed and have gotten worse since I have started staying home with my children. The dishwasher has to be loaded a certain way or it won't work and just last week, I had a compulsion to weed the garden because if I didn't the tomatoes would die. I am to start Prozac tomorrow and will see if it helps. I really appreciate everyone that wrote something. While I know that I am not crazy, it helps to know that others feel the way that I do.

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Comment from: Zip, 25-34 Male Published: May 08

I believe that I developed OCD as a result of ADHD. When I was a young child during the late 80s and early 90s, I could not keep my ADHD under control, and it kept me from learning in school. This was before it was a (popular) commonly diagnosed learning disorder. My teachers and parents did not know what to do. I'm guessing they assumed I was stupid, or lacked the willpower to concentrate. I later (around the age of 10) developed OCD, which was a, sort of, compensation for my lack of attention. I would repeatedly count my steps, and do simple tasks multiple times, such as wash my hands. It was also a superstitious thing; I believed that the repeated tasks would keep away bad luck. However, I remember telling myself that I was going to stop doing it one day, and I slowly willed myself to ignore the compulsions. They are still there, but I have control over them. It also helped to ride my mind of superstitious dilutions. My thoughts are still very chaotic, but creative at the same time. It helps to be optimistic. I never took any drugs, just caffeine (which seems to still help), and to this day live a fairly normal life. However, I would probably be a lot happier now if I was diagnosed early on and did not have to suffer through my childhood. Childhood should be enjoyed!

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Comment from: heather, 19-24 Female Published: February 20

I have had OCD for as long as I can remember. When I was going through elementary school, I would always count my steps between the side walks. I made myself believe that I was only allowed to take two steps on every sidewalk. I would always do things evenly. If I rubbed one eye, I would have to rub the other and so on. If I didn't rub or touch something right away, then the part of my body I did touch felt heavier, and I needed to make it even. As I got came to college, my OCD took over. I would be in my class and if certain things came into my head, I would have to write them down. I would write things throughout my entire class, and I would end up not knowing what I was supposed to learn. I finally went to the school psychologist, and then my doctor and they prescribed Paxil. After two months, it helped but not for the more major obsessive and compulsion. At this time, I was home for the summer. I worked in a pharmacy, I would be counting pills for prescriptions not just once or twice, I would count them many times until it felt right, and after that, I would run the pills through the automatic counter a few times until that felt right. This took way too long, so I went to my doctor for my check-up, and she prescribed me a higher dosage of Paxil. Now I am doing a lot better than in the past.

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Comment from: 13-18 Female (Patient) Published: January 21

My OCD started when I was 13 years old. I had to ask the same question over and over. I have been doing this for a long time, but my SAT exams made it 10 times worse so that I couldn't cope. I went to talk to a teacher, and I am going the CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) course now. I have a lot of support from my friends, and counselors. The teachers at school understand if I freak out about tests. Although I get a lot of support, I still wish that it would all go away.

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