Patient Comments: Borderline Personality Disorder - Symptoms

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Comment from: its not hopeless, 25-34 Female Published: July 12

I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder 4 years ago. It was actually a relief to know why I feel the way I do! I'm not one for group therapy, and all the medications they gave me made me feel worse. I took things into my own hands. I researched and educated myself on the illness. It's still an everyday battle and occasionally I still cut myself and think I'd be better off dead. I constantly remind myself why I feel the way I do and it helps. I've managed to maintain a healthy relationship and successful career. I will never feel the way normal people feel, but I know the way I feel and have no choice but to maintain, I have a little girl who needs me.

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Comment from: 19-24 Female (Patient) Published: May 31

I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD) when I was forced into a mental hospital after self-injuring a bit too deep. I'm still mad about that, but I am also thankful for it. That doctor diagnosed me, which led me to dialectical behavior therapy. I cut myself for around 15 years, but I haven't since the second week of therapy (about 8 months ago). After 2 or 3 months, I quit even thinking about it. My moods are stable now, and I can actually handle them. I just wanted to share so everyone knows there IS hope. Maybe dialectical behavior therapy isn't for you (though you should try), but something out there is.

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Comment from: fruitl00p, 19-24 Female (Patient) Published: May 18

A year ago I learned that I have BPD. My only hope is that one day I can feel normal and not crazy. I struggle every day with this disorder; I go from being super happy one second to being angry or sad the next and it changes so quickly, one little thing can set me off and that's it. I feel as though, no one understands what I go through on a daily basis, maybe if someone did understand I wouldn't feel so alone. The relationships I hold with people, are minimal. I don't have many friends because I like them and then they do one little thing and I can't get that little thing out of my head and I end up hating them. I take everything so personally, like if someone doesn't message me back, I think they read it and just don't want to talk so they are ignoring me or they don't like me. Things that aren't a big deal to everyone else, are a big deal to me and then there is conflict. Dating wise is not a fun experience. Even when I am aware that I am getting treated horribly, I stay for fear that I will be alone the rest of my life. Who would want to date someone that can't control their emotions and freaks out over the smallest things! I feel like I'll never be happy.

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Comment from: FreakedOut, 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: May 03

I am currently an in-patient in a mood disorder program. I was recently told I had borderline personality disorder (BPD). I have had feelings of emptiness, fear of abandonment, uncontrollable rages, suicide attempts, and self-harm behaviors. I continuously feel like people hate me as much as I hate myself. When I do meet with my medical doctor I am afraid to tell him the truth about how I am feeling for fear of judgment. I know he is here to help me but I find myself lying just for approval. I was married and now separated as my husband could not cope with my mood swings. I have nowhere to go and no one to talk to. Reading more about this illness and poor recovery is alarming. I am so scared and not sure what to do.

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Comment from: Laura, 35-44 Female (Patient) Published: March 22

Please help me! I cant control my life, one minute im ok the next im in A and E after hurting myself mainly overdose but i do self harm im always paranoid i feel like i have to be perfect i feel empty inside and i cant control my mood its either high or low never in between. My spending is out of control i feel like i dont belong and i find it hard to keep friends not that i have any i feel isolated and different and i have low self esteem.

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Comment from: dls57, 55-64 Female (Patient) Published: February 18

Extreme mood swings come with my borderline personality disorder. I didn't even know it was going to happen. All of the sudden I saw red and I would scream at everyone from family to friends. My anger would especially be toward clerks in stores. If I perceived poor service I would in a low, vicious voice tell them how bad, how they should be fired, and on and on. My children tell me they would not go to town with me anymore because of my anger. I have made numerous (at least 5 times)attempts at suicide in the last 11 years. My childhood was very messed up which I have been told is systematic of BPD.

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Comment from: Mahzabeen, 19-24 Female (Patient) Published: May 22

I underestimate myself then very often find myself doing better than others, who I admire.

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